God at the Gas Station
A Day I'll Never Forget
I will never forget the day at the gas station when my grandfather taught me about God’s sovereignty.
I ran out of gas on my way home from my college commute. My grandfather met me at a gas station not far from home to fill up my tank because I was low on money.
That day was heavy. That day was hard. My brother had been battling aggressive brain cancer. It was not looking good. Despite how it looked, we were all praying and believing for a miracle.
Life was anything but normal. Yet, there we were— pumping gas.
“What are we going to do?” I softly asked holding back tears.
He paused for a moment. Keeping his hand firmly on the pump and eyes straight ahead he answered, “It’s in God’s hands now.”
My grandfather was a preacher full of faith. And that day at the gas station I saw his faith on display. Yes, he believed God for a miracle. And Yes, he believed God’s hands were tightly holding onto us.
I thought about all the faith filled prayers we prayed. I thought about all the times I spoke of the miracle on the way. I thought of the countless people praying around the world.
And then I saw the hands of God holding it all together. I saw God’s hands holding my brother.
Ultimately my brother was not healed on earth, he was healed in heaven.
“It’s in God’s hands now.”
I think of those words often. God is holding me together. He holds me together in great grief. He holds me together in great joy. He holds me together at the gas station.
I am in His hands. And He is enough for me.
If you’re asking the same question that I asked at the gas station, I just want to encourage you with this truth:
You, dear one, are in God’s hands.
I don’t have the answers. I don’t know why some people get their miracle and others don’t. But I do know God is sovereign. And I do know God is good.
I do know that in the aftermath of absolute devastation God is with us.
I do know God grieves with us. I do know the Holy Spirit comforts us. I do know Jesus paid it all and the ultimate healing is waiting in heaven because He died on the cross so we could live forever in glory.
I do know that I will see my brother again one day. I do know that I will see the miracle fulfilled — the miracle we all prayed and believed for.
It didn’t turn out the way I hoped. But my hope in Jesus Christ has never put me to shame.
You are in God’s hands. Your life is in God’s hands. You can trust Him. In the darkest of nights He is holding you in His hands. And that is more than enough.
God is enough at the gas station. God is enough in the hospital room. God is enough at the kitchen sink. God is more than enough for me.
And He is more than enough for you.
With Love,
Audra
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Awesome post! Thank you for sharing. I can read the pain in your words, but I also see the joy and contentment knowing Who is in control. Amen.
So good and well needed. When we face these things sometimes our faith falters and often it is the faith of others that sustains us.